Sunday, November 29, 2015

My Feelings

The above sums up how I feel some days, some days I just want to curl up and never get up, some days I feel I just can't go on and its all too hard. I have to remember that I have a lot of people that love and support me.

I am trying to be more upbeat but on days when I don't get a lot of sleep cause of the flashbacks I just feel too tired to do anything. I'm finding that colouring is really helping me though I really do miss scrapping but just can't seem to get interested in doing it.

I was hoping that it would all be over and I could start afresh next year but the sentencing has been pushed back again and is now the 22nd January 2016, wish they would just get it over and done with.

I'm seeing a psychologist that was provided by victim services, she seems ok will see how it goes. I hate feeling the way I do and just wish it would all end.

Monday, November 9, 2015

My Theme Songs

I have a couple of theme songs that I listen to when I'm not coping that well, I find they pick me up and give me hope.

The first one which I have as my ringtone is Rachel Platten's Fight song

The second one is Demi Lovato's Skyscraper, I like this song and listen to it when I feel that I'm letting my abuser control my life, I need to learn and stop letting him control my life